Fear of the 200s

This morning I woke up absolutely terrified about my week (went out to dinner last night and and going out for lunch today) and about leaving for Jamaica on Saturday. I worked so hard to get out of the 200s and now I'm deathly afraid of gaining any weight!

I'm becoming obsessed. I fear that over the course of this week and my week in Jamaica I will put on enough weight to push me back into the 200s. I never want to see that number again but I don't want to live my life in fear of gaining weight. I just can't stomach having to lose all of that weight all over again.

*sigh*

I just don't know...

Thanks for reading.

xoxo

Allie